So I got the results from the most recent sleep study today. Much of it is medical jargon. "No indication of apnea," it says. I had four of something called "hypopnea" and a total of eight awakenings. Because I had slept exceedingly bad the previous 2-3 nights, I fell asleep in minutes instead of staying awake for hours like I'm almost used to now.

First it's not apnea, then it is, and now it isn't again.

At the end of the report, the doctor draws attention to the fact that I described myself as an evening person, and tries to write it off as a result of a distorted sleep schedule.

Sleep effectivity 90,3% my ass. Then why did I sleep for ten hours and wake up just as tired as I was when I went to bed? That doesn't sound very effective to me.

In other news, I am hearing things that aren't happening more frequently. Possibly due to paranoia and/or sleep deprivation.

Some days, giving up almost seems like an option. But there's a better life waiting for me, if I can keep my determination to fight for it.